I do drugs with my 9 year old son

I have 1 son 9 years old. He's not the best looking kid ever. He's not the most intelligent ever. He is autistic. He is also the most loving kid in the world. He says "I love you dad" at least 30 times a day. He tells everyone he sees that he loves them. He is a very positive boy.<br><br>That being said, he's not the best functioning kid ever. He is 9 and he is just recently getting to the point where he can stay clean and washes his hands. He requires lots of attention. He will ask for food constantly, even after a full meal. He will ask the same questions constantly. He will laugh like an idiot constantly. He will ask "why" about anything. <br><br>He is on a few medications, and it helps quite a bit. However, even with medication, he is constantly on my ass. He will also demand attention. <br><br>I'm a smoker. I smoke weed 24/7. I am also a drinker. I don't smoke cigarettes anymore, but I still enjoy the nicotine from 1-2 cigars a day. I have a small drink every night. I don't consider myself a alcoholic, but I also do spend quite a bit on alcohol.<br><br>That being said, pot is my life line. It makes it a lot easier to talk to my son repeatedly. It makes it a lot easier to tolerate his jokes. <br><br>I do vape with my son sometimes. It helps him a lot with his impulsiveness. He's able to answer questions better. He doesn't laugh like an idiot as much. He isn't as demanding. He doesn't ask the same questions over and over. I take a 1-2 hits and then we will share the rest. <br><br>I do let him drink sometimes. It makes him extremely talkative so we just chat about random stuff. He's not big on drinking, but he does like having a small sip with me. <br><br>He doesn't like nicotine. He tried vaping with nicotine and he got extremely sick. <br><br>Now, I don't let him do anything without my supervision. I don't care if he vapes or has a drink with or without me. I do care if he does either without my supervision.<br><br>He's my boy. I love him so much.