I was molested / raped by my sister

This is a throwaway account and this is a throwaway post because I don't want this kind of info linked to my main account.<br><br>Two times in my life I was raped. Both times by my older sister.<br><br>I am an only male who had two older sisters and one younger sister. From a young age my two older sisters would bully me, call me names, make me do their chores, beat up on me. Once I got older I was able to defend myself better and told them to fuck off. I never really trusted my sisters because I felt like they saw me as less than human. I feel like they never saw me as a person but rather as some aberration / weirdo they had to tolerate / use as a servant. I don't really have much contact with them anymore since I moved away for work.<br><br>I have a younger sister. We never had any bad experiences. I honestly loved her more than my own life. I honestly would have given my life for her. And to this day she is the only member of my family I have any contact with.<br><br>So, the first time I was around 9 and my older sisters were 16 and 17. I don't remember every detail but I remember my 17 yo sister saying she wanted to give me a new hair cut. I remember that at some point she started groping me, she even asked if I was "turned on". I was confused and said no. She then said she wanted to suck my dick which I also refused. She then got mad and said she was going to cut my hair off very short to spite me. I refused again and she started fighting me. She was able to wrestle me to the ground and she groped me again and sucked my dick. I was so confused and didn't know what to do. I started crying and I remember my 16 yo sister walking in on us and laughing. She then started helping my 17 yo sister restrain me while she sucked my dick until she got off. Then they left me alone.<br><br>The second time was when I was 13 and my sisters were 20 and 21. My 20 yo sister told me she wanted to have sex with me and if I didn't she would cut up my favorite video game and destroy my gaming console. I said no and she threatened to destroy my stuff so I said yes. We went to her room and she and my 21 yo sister had sex with me. They were rough and I started bleeding because my dick was too small and they were too rough. They then started calling me a "faggot" because I was in pain and bleeding.<br><br>I never told anyone about this because I was too ashamed and scared. And it honestly took a very long time for me to come to terms with this but my sisters raped me. It was not consensual. I feel like I can never trust a woman again and I can never have a normal relationship. I am really starting to regret having been born.