Am I able to find love?

I'm 5'0, 100 lbs, and have a sweet cherubic face (not everybody agrees, I'm an alcoholic). I'm of Cherokee and Mexican descent. Does my disability keep me from being able to find love? I often see women and girls who are very interested in me when I'm in public. I'm not really sure what to do, as I've never had much luck with women. I'm 37 years old. I've had two failed marriages as well. <br>I used to have a good amount of muscle mass as well when I worked as a mechanic, but I'm not sure if I can go back to that again as I'm not sure how much strength I have in my hands anymore. I sometimes get offered food because of my size and I get extremely embarassed over it. I feel like it's a big deal when I refuse and say I have money, it makes me feel a lot better knowing that women are still into me even though I'm small. <br><br>Would it benefit me to get into better physical shape and focus on that before trying to find love? I'm still able to have a great time at work in the kitchen, I'm very efficient with my time and get all my work done without any problems. I would just really like to find someone who will be willing to look past my disability and love me for who I am. I want to be able to be able to take of myself and my disability for the rest of my life, but it often makes me feel bad and unworthy of love.