I recently got a mega job and I cannot handle the depression that comes with it

When I was 17 I went to university and studied business management. I was in a pharmacy technician program when I was Kids and I decided to go into business so that I could continue in the medical field as a medical device representative. I matched with a company and they were impressed with my background as a pharmacy technician and I knew a lot of the medical terms and medical terminology. If you don't know what a medical device representative does, they are the people that sell devices to hospitals and then they go out and train doctors on the devices. The devices I sell are for urology and gastroenterology. So I sell implantable medical devices for different ailments such as incontinence, male urology and gastroenterology. My company sells inflatable bladders and rectal implants and I've gotten to work with some of the most interesting doctors and some of the most interesting cases. I work very closely with my doctors and I'm very close with a lot of them and when I go and I train them on devices the cases they worked on just leave me feeling so good. When I see a case of like a young toddler who had a birth defect and I was able to train the doctors on the device that was able to help that young toddler doesn't have to have a permanent ostomy or whatever, it just feels so good and it's so rewarding. <br><br>I know this is not what you would think of what a successful job is but this is my dream job. I only woke up one day and started doing the research to become aMedical device representative because it is a lucrative career with a lot of growth. And I could continue working in the medical field which I've always been passionate about. So I went and did all the research myself and studied and networked and did everything I could to get my dream job. I knew if I got my dream job I could afford to live a comfortable life which I do now, but it's also rewarding because I get to see the cases that the doctors worked on and I get to see the progression of new technology and all the new devices that are coming out and just how much it's helping humanity. I feel so good about what I do and I feel so proud that I was able to accomplish this because it was just a dream of mine. It was something I didn't know existed when I was younger, but it was something I knew I wanted to do when I learned about it. This job is my passion and I've accomplished something that I wanted to do. <br><br>It feels really good to see the work and the research pay off. I can now afford a life that I want without worrying about money. It's a feeling that no one can describe. Maybe it would be a good analogy to say that it's like being in school for four years and graduating at the top of your class. It feels good to know that all my hard work paid off and I was able to get the job that I wanted and get the life that I wanted. I was able to study my work and put myself through college so that I could get a career that I can afford to live comfortably. <br><br>The only downside is the political climate and that the earth is deteriorating. I feel so good about all the opportunities I have and that I've accomplished my dreams, but it's also so sad because I don't know how long we'll be on this earth. It just feels so good to see all my hard work pay off and to be able to live comfortably without worrying about money. The only bad thing is that I'm living on a planet that's dying. I know that humans are the main reason for the deterioration of earth. And I'm not saying that I'm not a part of that, I drive a car and use plastic and I contribute to the deterioration of the earth as well. I'm just so proud to have this new job because I've always been a poor person and I had to fight so hard for everything and I finally accomplished something that I wanted to do. But I have to accept that the world is not going to be here forever. I'm not sure what humanity's future is, but I'm just proud that I was able to accomplish my dreams.<br><br>TLDR: I recently got a new job as a medical device representative at a big company and I'm proud that I was able to get this job because it's a job that is my passion and it's a job that I wanted, but I'm sad about the political climate and the deterioration of earth.