long lost sister

I am 30. My family used to not get along with my aunt and uncle, my moms sister and her husband, and his kids. This was partly because my mom sides with her mom in a lot of arguments. So now my grandma lives with us. She refuses to live with her other daughter because my mom is the "good" one. <br><br>A month ago my aunt and uncle had some sort of a get to together at our house. My moms been trying to get her family to like her more, so my grandma asked if she could host the party. <br><br>My cousin Eliza used to be my best friend when we were young. She's the only one of my cousins who's close to my age. We used to see each other all the time. <br><br>We both had a crush on each other. We were each other's first kiss, and other than one other person, the only one I've had sex with. <br><br>The sex was crazy, because we had been repressing it for so long, we just went all out. It's not like we were ashamed, but we were afraid that the rest of our family would find out. So we were really quiet about it. <br><br>We would meet up at my house, and go up to my room. We'd have sex, and then go back to the party. <br><br>The first time we had sex, we were both 16. When I turned 18, I went to study at a university on the other side of the country. We stayed in touch, but never met again. <br><br>So it's been 12 years since we've met. At first I tried to ignore her, because of how awkward I felt. I'm married, and have 2 kids. So does she. <br><br>The whole time I kept looking at her. And she kept looking at me. At one point we were in the kitchen alone, and she came up to me, and kissed me. <br><br>We talked about how much we've missed each other, and how much we've thought about each other, and how much we love each other. We talked about how we wanted to be together, but how that's impossible. <br><br>We talked for almost an hour, and then I went back to the party. I'm still processing everything that's happened.