I always knew fame, talent and good looks don't mean anything if you have money

I am by no means a danger to myself or others but I have depression. Today something fucking snapped and I started searching why is it that these people get what they want while I am stuck in this miserable hole. I am more beautiful than Niki Minaj, I have some talent but I still have to rely on my parents up to this day because my 3rd job has only 3 hours/week. I don't have any drama or whatever but I am "fine". Now, after months of preparation, Niki Minaj is... dating a 26 year old billionaire.<br>I am an average person, like totally average. I don't even have any major flaws or anything. I have had my share of fame, so I know what it feels like but I can tell you now that even though it feels good, it doesn't last that long. And when it's gone, you are back to square one. But money will give you the way to rescue yourself over and over and over again. This is what I mean: Niki Minaj is a good example again. She will get married, break up and then another rich guy will come to her and she will continue to live her life like nothing happened. Meanwhile, you get married to someone who is the best you can get, you have kids and live your life like a good girl. But no, it's not enough. You want some excitement, you want some hot guys, you want some luxury and everything you want you want it 10 times more when you get married. So you leave your husband, have fame, get some younger men, lose all your money, wish you were back in your previous life, make a comeback and get back into your previous life. Wash, rinse, repeat. You are 2 years older.