Using drugs to feel normal is so annoying

I hate not being able to take my depression, bipolar, and OCD medicine without it cancelling out my ability to get high but I also hate feeling unwell so much that it makes me use more drugs so I can feel somewhat normal and happy. Never a good feeling. Also my mental health team already made me stop taking adderall, and I recently relapsed on weed. Not sure what to do. Any ideas?