It’s over

I’ve been in therapy for 2 years and I’m just done trying to better myself or improve my social skills. I’m 19 and I look at the people I went to high school with having gf’s and making new friends and I just wish I had that. <br><br>I’ve had one conversation with a girl my entire life that lasted more than 5 minutes, I’ve had 2 texts from girls my entire life and never a single friend. I do everything I can to get out and I’m just not wired correctly and I accept that. <br><br>I’ve come to the realisation that I’m not meant to have a life of happiness and love. I’ve come to terms with it and I’m not angry about it anymore. I don’t feel sorry for myself anymore. I’m okay with it. <br><br>I’ve stopped going to therapy and I just can’t find the enthusiasm to improve my life anymore. I’ve been to therapy for two years and I’ve made no improvement. <br><br>I have come to terms with it now, and I feel better knowing that I can’t become a normal person and I need to stop trying. I wish I was wired correctly but I’m not. I’m okay with being a loner now and I’m not mad that I’ve drawn the short straw in life. <br><br>I’m not angry at people who get what I want. I just accept that I’m not meant to have it.