To think that we both had nothing to do with them

I am a girl but I have always thought that incest is the most disgusting thing, I wanted to stay away from it and i have never liked it and never will and I don't think I'll be able to change my feelings. I had a feeling that it's abnormal and unhealthy and I was sure of it and I still am. I don't know why are there so many people that think it's ok and normal, I'll never be able to understand that. <br><br>I was 17 and he was 26 and we were both the only children in the house, it was just us 2 and my mom who lived separately. My brother was not involved in my life and i was not involved in his life, we were 2 different people living in 2 different worlds and that's how I wanted to be. I never wanted to have anything to do with him, I absolutely did not want to have any contact with him or be around him, I hated even seeing him and i was always avoiding him because I was afraid. He was very impolite and he would always leave our house at night, I was highly suspicious of him and because of that, i was always afraid of him. I was living in our house alone, in my own world, studying and working all day long. I was not involved in anyone and anything and I wanted to be like that. I had read that incest is not normal and it is a sin and I had agreed on that and I wanted nothing to do with him at all. My father was always abroad and my mother was in a different city along with my little siblings. I was living on my own, doing everything myself. I have always been a very quiet and shy girl and I didn't want to talk to him at all, I hated that and I was always avoiding him. When he would come home i would stay in my room.