Blackpill makes me feel better

I've been reading this sub for a couple of months. I'm a white guy from South America. I was about to turn 16 when I was still a bluepill. I had never been to community school, always private school. I'm 18 now.<br><br>When I turned 16 I joined a public school because I had to repeat the year and I wanted to experience something new (I had been in the same private school for 10 years) and they say it's fun and stuff. Well it's the opposite. I only made one friend. After a week they were calling me names. They said I'm gay because of my voice, because "I sound like a girl" and stuff. I stopped bothering, but sometimes they would laugh at my pronunciation and shit like that. I'm 5'4, skinny, long black hair, acne, no facial hair at all, albino-like pale skin.<br><br>Since I'm 16 I've been feeling like a retard. I'm not going to lie, both my parents are rich. We have 2 cars, 2 houses (one in town and one in the countryside) and good food. But now I felt like a useless thing, like how can I inherit all of this if I'm a fucking worthless piece of shit? Now I'm aiming to leave home, join the army, get my own place, get a girlfriend, have kids, etcetera.<br><br>I started reading this sub and I know it's depressing, but somehow all the comments about how women are shallow and men are disposable made me feel better. I mean, I'm 5'4 skinny and ugly, but they would treat me like that even if I was 6'1 ripped and hot.