I've been a prisoner of my own mind for months and I'm struggling to get back out of the pit I've found myself in.

I was doing well until the election. Even though I'm only 21, I've been hating politics for most of my life. I was raised conservative, but I do believe the election shoved me deeper into the pit. Even though I'm not well versed in politics, it's just so apparent to me how the left is so obviously evil and such disgusting disgusting people, I don't know how anyone can defend them. They're psychopaths and I feel like I'm going crazy.<br><br>I've been having these inner dialogs with myself about how I want to be able to help but I don't know how. I'm from a blue state and no one wants to hear it from a "racist." I want to be able to tell my friends and my family I think it matters, but they think I'm disgusting for even having a slight right leaning political opinion. <br><br>I feel so powerless and I'm not sure how to get out of this pit I've found myself in. I don't want to be a prisoner of my own mind and I want to stop feeling so hopeless. I've been reading articles lately and trying to stay up to date, but I don't want to be constantly thinking about the state of society and everything that's wrong with it. I feel like I should be able to put it out of my mind until election season.<br><br>I just want to feel hopeful again and I want to feel like my voice matters.<br><br>Anyone else feel this way? Anyways, thanks for reading this obnoxious post.