Husband cheated and now I want to cheat too

I wasn’t going to tell anyone this at all but I don’t have anyone to talk to and need help. My husband and I have been together for 16 years. We are in marriage counseling, individual counseling, and he goes to a counselor for his addiction (he’s sober now). I’m trying to forgive him and I think it’s working but I also don’t want to forgive him yet. I don’t know, it’s confusing. But what’s making it worse is that I got drunk a few nights ago with one of my friends at a bar. We saw a table of guys (mid 40s) and they were flirting and buying us drinks and we had a great time. one of them kept talking to me and when it was time to go he gave me his number outside the bar and said he wants to see me again. I don’t know if it was just the alcohol speaking but I’m still thinking about him. We’ve been texting and he asked me to meet him. I haven’t decided yet, but I don’t know if I would tell my husband or not. <br><br>I don’t want to cheat because that’s terrible and I can’t imagine doing that to my husband the way he did to me but I also don’t want to feel pain anymore and I feel like that would hurt him and make him feel what I’m feeling. I know it’s so immature. <br><br>Has anyone else felt this way or am I just being a horrible person? <br><br>tldr at the end: I want to cheat on my husband as revenge for him cheating.