Zoe is out of my league and is now off the market.

Zoe is a chick from high school. I knew her through my best friend in high school. He and I were naturally more gregarious than her so that's how we met. So, she used to make fun of me a lot back then but not in the way that you think. She would say shit like "Why do you eat so slow? Eat faster" or "Why are you so pathetic at video games? Let me play" or "Why are you moving so slow. Hurry up" or "you're so dumb" or "You're so stupid" or "You're so pathetic" - shit like that. She had a pretty outgoing personality and used to make everyone laugh in class and was pretty much the class clown. <br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>Anyway we all went to the prom together. She invited me to join her and my friend. I remember her telling me "I only invited you because I felt sorry for you. If you don't come I'll be sad" and I was like "I'll be there. Don't worry" and she was like "No really. If you don't come I'll be sad. I expect to see you there" And I was like "I'll be there. I promise you that we'll be there together" - And so we went to the prom. It was pretty fun. And honestly at the time I didn't really give a shit that I didn't have a date. But it's not like I was some loser at the dance that didn't have a date. It's not like I didn't know anybody there either. I had my best friend, her, her friends, everybody. There were a lot of people there that I knew. There were a lot of people I didn't know too lol<br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>Fast forward to about 6 years later. We're all in our mid 20s now. So in my city there's usually a fireworks display on the 4th of July that's at the minor league baseball stadium. People usually go there to watch it because it's close to the city. I was working at the time and I invited my friend and her out to the event at the stadium and they both agreed. I remember when I invited her she was like "I don't know if I can make it. I have to check my boyfriend's schedule first" And I was like "What boyfriend?" And she was like "My BF of 3 years. I thought you knew" And I was like "I didn't know. That's news to me" And she was like "Well now you know" - I was like alright, well I can understand that. But then she said "But I'm not promising we'll be there. Like I said, I have to see what he has going on first"<br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>So the day of the event at the stadium comes around and I text her and I'm like "Hey, are you coming to the fireworks display or not?" And she's like "What the hell, I'm right behind you. What took you so long?" And I was like "What the hell do you mean you're right behind me? I thought you had to check your boyfriend's schedule?" And she says "Oh, he went to Chicago to visit family so don't worry about it"<br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>It was pretty fun. We were hanging out. I remember someone setting off a bunch of fireworks in the parking lot and her grabbing onto me and pulling me close to her. Her holding me and her arms around my waist. Her hands on my chest, her close to my face. But the moment was gone when a bunch of more fireworks went off and she was like "What the hell is this shit? Don't throw that over here" But yeah. It was fun. It was a really fun time. But that moment was over and it was gone. I remember when we were in our early 20s, my birthday rolled around and we went to this bar for my birthday. I remember her actually kissing me that night, but I can't really describe the type of kiss it was. I just remember her giving me a quick peck on the lips. I don't know. I remember it being weird, but I can't describe it. <br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>Fast forward a few years later. So it's now 2023. I'm 26. I get tagged in an announcement. "Guess who's getting married" I look and it's her fiancé. They're getting married in June 2024. I don't really give a shit about it. I just send it to my friend and I'm like "Zoe's getting married" and he's like "I knew that" <br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>So yeah that's it. I'm not really mad about it. Or anything like that. But it's a shame that she's gone. But whatever. She's gone now.<br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>Edit. So she messaged me out of the blue today and was like "Hey how's it going? It's been a while" - I was like "Yeah it's been a while" and she was like "So what's up?" And I was like "Not much. Just work" - She was like "I don't know if you heard, but I'm getting married in June" And I was like "Yeah I heard" And then she was like "Yeah, I'm pretty excited" And I was like "Yeah, me too" And then there was just this big gap of silence between us. She eventually broke the silence and messaged me "Sorry, but I have to go. I'll talk to you later. I hope" - And I was like "Yeah. Sounds good" <br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>It was kind of weird. Like we both knew that I'd never hear from her again, but we both knew that we had to say something. I didn't want to say anything because what was I going to say? What would she say back? I mean yeah. What the hell do you say to one another? Like "Well, it was nice knowing you. See ya around" Yeah of course not. But that's one of the only reasonable things you could say. So it was just kind of weird and awkward like that.