My (30F) Husband (35M) wants to kick me out

My (30F) husband (35M) and I got married 5 years ago and have a daughter (5F). I accidentally found out that he’s been cheating on me for almost a year now. I feel absolutely wrecked. I love this man so much. He’s been my best friend for almost a decade. I’m heartbroken. I’m also very angry. I confronted him yesterday and he told me he wants a divorce. I asked him why. He said that he doesn’t love me anymore. I asked if it’s because of the other woman. He said no. So I asked him why he cheated on me then? He said that he didn’t know. I asked “how did you not know?” He said that he was “weak” and “made mistakes”. I asked how many times? He said “a few”. I asked him why he wants me to move out? He said that it’s not appropriate for us to be together if we’re not married. I asked him why he didn’t have the decency to protect me from getting an STD? He didn’t answer. He just said “sorry”. I asked him if he was planning on divorcing me this whole time? He said “yeah”. I asked him “how long has this been going on?” He said that it started a year ago. I said “so you were planning on divorcing me a year ago? You knew you didn’t love me? You knew you were going to cheat on me?” He said “yeah”. I asked him why he had sex with me? He said that I “initiated it”. I asked him if he had any problems with me initiating it? He said “yeah… well, I didn’t say anything”. I asked him why not? He said “I didn’t wanna hurt your feelings”. I asked him why did he let me initiate sex? He said “I didn’t wanna hurt your feelings”. I asked him if he feels bad about any of this? He said “yeah… I don’t know!”. I asked him if he knows how I feel? He said “no”. I said “you’re supposed to be my best friend… I feel like I’m married to a different man”. He didn’t answer. I asked him if he’s going to tell the other woman that he’s leaving us? He said “yeah”. I asked him if he’s going to take care of me and our daughter? He said “yeah”. I asked him if that’s why he’s been working so much? To provide for us and the other woman? He didn’t answer. I asked him again “how long has this been going on?” He said “a year”. I said “that’s the length of our daughter’s life. So you were cheating on me while I was pregnant? You were cheating on me while I had PPD? You were cheating on me when our daughter was born?” He didn’t answer. I asked him if he remembers when our daughter was born and said that he wanted to “grow old” with me? He didn’t answer. I asked him if he remembers when he told me that he’s “married to his best friend”? He didn’t answer. I asked him to look at me. He didn’t look at me. I asked him if he’s going to tell his family? He said “yeah”. I asked him if he’s going to tell my family? He said “yeah”. I asked him how does he feel about my family? He said “I don’t know!”. I asked him how does he feel about himself? He said “I don’t know!”. I asked him if he feels bad about hurting his daughter? He said “yeah…”. I asked him if he’s going to be involved in our daughter’s life? He said “yeah”. I asked him “are you sure?” He said “yeah”. I asked him if he’s going to let another man around his daughter? He said “yeah”. I asked him “are you sure? You’re not a good father”. He said “I don’t know!”. I said “so you’ve been calling me a bad mother this whole time and YOU were cheating on me?”. He said “sorry…”. I said “that’s not enough… I don’t want to live here anymore”. He said “I’m sorry”. I said “that’s not enough… I hope you get what you deserve”. He didn’t answer. I asked him “are you okay?” He didn’t answer. I asked him again “are you okay? Are you going to be okay?”. He didn’t answer. He just sat there. I asked him “can you do me a favor?” He said “yeah”. I asked him to tell his family that I want a divorce from him. I don’t want to talk to them. He said “yeah”. I asked him to tell our daughter that we’re getting a divorce. I don’t want to talk to her. He said “yeah”. I asked him to help me move out. He said “yeah”. I asked him to tell his mistress that I want a divorce from him. I don’t want to talk to her. He said “yeah”. I asked him to tell his mistress that I hope she’s happy. She won. She’s going to be with my husband. I wish her the best of luck. I hope she gets what she deserves. He said “yeah”. I asked him to tell his mistress that I hope she has a good time fucking him. I hope she enjoys it. I hope she doesn’t get pregnant. I hope she uses protection. He said “yeah”. I asked him to tell his mistress that I hope she doesn’t contact me. I don’t want to hear from her. I don’t want to see her. I don’t want anything to do with her. I’m not going to talk to her. He said “yeah”. I asked him to tell his mistress that I hope she’s not calling him “husband”. She has no right to call him that. I’m his wife. I’m his “husband”. He said “yeah”. I asked him to tell his mistress that I hope she’s not telling him that she loves him. She doesn’t know him. She doesn’t know what love is. He doesn’t know what love is. He said “yeah”. I asked him to tell his mistress that I will not forgive him if he marries her. I will not forgive him if he has a child with her. I will not forgive him if he stays friends with her. I will not forgive him if he talks to her. He said “yeah”. I asked him to tell his mistress that I will ruin her life if I find out that she’s still talking to him. He said “yeah”. I asked him to tell his mistress that I hope she understands that it’s over between us. It’s been over for almost a year. He said “yeah”. I asked him to tell his mistress that I’m leaving. I’m leaving him. I’m leaving her. I’m going to start a new life. I’m going to be happy. He said “yeah”. I asked him to tell his mistress that I hope she doesn’t contact me. I don’t want to hear from her. I don’t want to see her. He said “yeah”. I asked him to tell his mistress that I’m going to move on with my life. I’m going to find someone else. He said “yeah”. I asked him to tell his mistress that I’m not going to waste my time on him. I’m not going to waste my time thinking about him. He said “yeah”. I asked him to tell his mistress that I hope she doesn’t try to contact me again. I hope she doesn’t try to see me again. I hope she doesn’t try to talk to me again. I’m not going to talk to her. He said “yeah”. I asked him to tell his mistress that I’m finished with him. I’m finished. He said “yeah”. I asked him to tell his mistress that I’m done. I’m done with him. I’m done with her. He said “yeah”. I asked him “did you hear me?”. He said “yeah”. I asked him to tell his mistress that I hope she understands me. I hope she understands that it’s over. He said “yeah”. I asked him to repeat what he’s going to tell his mistress. He repeated everything.<br><br>I made an appointment with my therapist. I made an appointment with my doctor to get tested for STDs. I made an appointment with my lawyer. I’m packing my bags. I’m going to stay with my family. I’m going to tell them what happened. I’m telling everyone close to me that he’s cheating on me. I’m telling everyone that we’re getting a divorce. I’m not going to waste my time on him. I’m going to focus on myself. I’m going to find another job. I’m going to find another place to live. I’m going to find another man. I’m going to start a new life. I’m done. I’m finished.<br><br>I don’t know. I’m so confused. I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t know what else to do. I don’t know what else to say. I’m done. I’m finished. I’m so tired. I’m so sad. I’m so angry.<br><br>How do I move on with my life?