I have a huge crush on a guy, but don't want to date him

Hi, I'm a woman. I'm 20yo, pretty regular college student, and this guy I met in class is just the most gorgeous and cutest person I've ever seen. I would totally go on a date with him if he asked me. The thing is, I'm regular foid and I don't want to date ANY guys, I've been mistreated and manipulated by so many of the in the past, and this time I want to stay with myself, I'm happy alone. <br><br>I'm also really afraid of getting hurt again. So I have a huge crush on him, but I'm not going to follow it because of my fear. <br><br>How could I be over this? I feel like I'm settling for a life alone. <br><br>Tldr: I'm foid and regular foid but this incredibly gorgeous guy is making my heart race and I don't want to follow it because of fear of getting hurt