I'm a Cynic. But not in the way you might think.

For a few years now I've started to lean toward a radical rejection of most of society. I'm not sure if this is good or bad, but my cynicism is slowly driving me away from placing any form of trust into the idea of 'good' in this world. Nothing seems so evil that I'd rather die than let it exist anymore. Nothing seems so selfless that I'd make a sacrifice for the idea that sacrificing oneself is noble. <br><br>I resent the word sacrifice. If we really wanted people to make a sacrifice then we would make a sacrifice without the expectation of a reward. We'd not expect a funeral. We wouldn't expect to be remembered. And we certainly wouldn't expect to be called a hero. <br><br>Heroes are nothing but a way to keep people from leaving before they are finished. To keep them working without complaint. To prevent them from sacrificing their precious time to a world that is slowly moving toward an inevitable end, leaving us with nothing but dust in the wind.<br><br>I don't want to be a hero. I'm not one before anyone. I have never done a single act of kindness without expecting something in return.<br><br>When you see someone do something wonderful, realize that you are being manipulated by a system of narrative. This is our reality. We all have a place in the story of others, we all serve a purpose before we are discarded.<br><br>I'm not a cynic. But not in the way you might think. I am a cynic because I know that we are all cynics, that we are all selfish. But it is not a bad thing. <br><br>It is up to you to decide whether you are friend or the enemy. But we're either way, you are your own. No one else will ever truly be.