i am the suckiest most boringest man alive

yeah i am happy to be a single guy. i do not really have any hobbies, i find work more satisfying (yeah i am a loser) and i love the freedom of not having to worry about someone else.<br><br>my biggest mistake, my first job was as a lawyer. i loved it for a good while, but the high pressure and long hours left me burnt out. i was young, i regret it, i should have done something more fun but i did not know what would be fun. now im 35. my experience and skills are not transferable to a lot of careers, i am too old for a rigid and long training like med school, and i have a kid to support. <br><br>my biggest mistake, i grew up in an era where it was for a man to be an open book, to be vulnerable, to be the suck up and emotional laborer in relationships. then i got fucked over by a girl i loved. cue inceldom. <br><br>i dont know what more to say. i am the suckiest most boringest man alive. i do not have any hobbies. i am lonely but i am perfectly fine. i am not for lack of a better term "broke" or "addicted" and i am not in any real danger of being lonely. im not even 40 yet. somehow i still have a spark of hope that i will find someone i can tolerate talking to. it will be a miracle.