I can’t stop thinking about the adult woman who walked into a room and began shit-stirring when she saw her dad hugging me.

26M I’m an adult student at my daughter’s school. I’ve always been a “Daddy’s girl”. I grew up with a single dad and I have always looked up to him and admired him. He’s the kindest, most incredible person you’ve ever met. And I know most people would probably find this weird, but I’ve recently discovered that it’s my ultimate fantasy to be with someone like him. I’ve only grown more and more attracted to him since I turned 18. I know my dad would never be with me, and I would never be with him, but there is just something about the idea of it that gets me off.<br>So, about a year ago, I confided in my friend, “Brad.” As much as I hate to say this, my dad kind of “groomed” me. I grew up believing I was his property, and that he had complete control over me. He was incredibly possessive, and I was never allowed to have friends or relationships. He controlled everything I did, every emotion I expressed, and every piece of clothing I wore. He was so controlling, that he wouldn’t let me cut my hair a certain length, or let me wear makeup, or let me express a particular opinion. I grew up feeling like I had to fit a certain image and behave in a certain way. I also never had any relationships because my dad never wanted me to be “tainted”. That’s probably why I’m still a virgin at 26.<br>Anyway, when I confided in Brad, he asked me if I just wanted to be with someone that reminded me of my dad. So, he said that we should be in a relationship, and that he would be strict and controlling like my dad, but in a fun and healthy way. He said that he would be my “Daddy” and that I could be his “Little girl”. At first, I was very skeptical, but I decided to give it a try, and it was everything I had hoped for and more.<br>One day, Brad and I were at my daughter’s school, and my dad saw us hugging and shit hit the fan. He told me that I’m disgusting and that I’m the filth of the earth. He said that there is something wrong with me, and that I’m better off dead. My daughter heard everything he said and told me that I’m sick in the head and that I make her sick. My brother said he wishes I was dead. My mom cried and said that she would never speak to me again. And now I feel like everything is ruined and that my whole family hates me, and it’s all because of my sex life and kink.<br>The whole fucking family went nuclear and started asking me if I was raped or molested or whatever, they kept asking me if I wanted to press charges, my mom accused my dad of sex abuse, my grandma started crying and saying what a shame this is, my aunt started shouting that my dad is a sick pedophile and that she never trusted him, my uncle threatened to beat my dad to death. My dad bursted into anger over the accusations and over my parents saying they wanted to take me to therapy, my dad said shit about them not knowing anything about me and that they don't know anything about me, I told them I'm happy with my relationship with my fiance and that they can't accuse my dad of anything and that everything they're saying is wrong and that's why I hate my family and want nothing to do with them. My daughter said she was glad my dad got mad at me because I deserve it.<br>I think my dad should have been free to say whatever he wanted to me and not be accused of anything, but at the same time, I feel like he says he loves me but treats me like trash and that my family just overreacted, I think my dad should just be able to express himself freely without being accused. I feel bad but I don't know why. All of this bullshit is ruining my life, but I don't know why my dad should be the victim when I'm the one who's in the wrong and my family just hates me for this. I can't explain it but I can't help but feel bad for him even though my family is right, but my family is ruining everything and making it all worse and I can't explain it.