My brother, my twin flame?

Sorry for the wall of text.<br><br>My brother, my twin flame? <br><br>I (17/f) have always felt this way, but never knew how to explain it. My brother (16/m) and I have always been super close. Our parents say we were inseparable before he even learned to talk. <br><br>One of my earliest memories is from when I was around four. My mom was cooking something on the stove and I could smell a strangeness in the air. It wasn’t until recently, when I smelled the same smell again, that I remembered that my mom had always burned food on the stovetop and that I thought it was normal food being burned until my brother had said that that smell reminds him of home. <br><br>When we were ten, I had a toothache on a Saturday and was crying and upset. My brother could tell I wasn’t feeling okay and took my hand and held it. He didn’t let go until I fell asleep. He’s never let go of my hand on purpose since. He doesn’t like holding hands and I respect that, but I always wish he would hold my hand again. <br><br>My brother is amazing at reading me. I’m terrible at expressing how I feel or if there’s even something wrong with me. My brother will always know when I’m not feeling good and will have the same gut feeling as to if I want to be alone or for him to comfort me. <br><br>When we were twelve, my friend asked me at school if I thought my brother was cute. I said, yes. I wasn’t trying to be mean or anything but my friend seemed offended by this. She told me that I shouldn’t think about my brother like that. My brother and I were both really confused by this. We didn’t think it was wrong because it’s okay to find people cute. It’s not like I wanted to marry him, but I never wanted to marry anyone. I didn’t like guys. <br><br>My brother and I would always go to the beach together. We’d go swimming and play football in the water and play board games in the evenings and watch movies together. He never liked watching romantic films, but he’d always let me pick a romcom and sit through it. He’d never complain and just sat there and watched my movie choices. <br><br>I’d watch him sometimes and feel an overwhelming urge to take care of him. I’d never wanted to do this for anyone. And he’d do the same for me. When I was sad, he’d tell me he loved me and that I’m the best thing that ever happened to him. We’d hug and I always felt instantly better. He’d always be there for me and always made me feel loved. <br><br>We didn’t talk about it for ages. I was never sure if it was normal for siblings to feel this way, but one night we were both in bed and we talked. I told him how much I loved him and how it felt like he was the one person for me and that I couldn’t imagine finding anyone else that made me feel so loved and happy. He smiled and looked me in the eyes and said that he felt the same way. He loves me so much that he prays for us to be together in the next life if it’s not allowed in this one. <br><br>Last year, we talked and decided to try. We’d never done anything more than hugged and kissed (the forehead, cheek, or lips) before. There was no pressure. We were both virgins. We went slow. He was so gentle and kind. Always asking me if I felt good and if I was comfortable. We did what felt right for both of us and when we were done, I had never felt happier. I loved him. I still do. <br><br>I never wanted a boyfriend because I knew I’d never be happy without my brother. I was right. Being with him makes me feel like I have a higher purpose in life. I hope I was born to be the one person he loves as much as he loves me. I love him that much. I never want to let him go. He’s the reason I get up in the mornings. <br><br>My parents are clueless. They have no idea. And if they did, though they may be on the fence, they’d think it was wrong because of the risk of genetic defects. They don’t understand how special our bond is. I’m not even sure how to explain it. It’s not the same as my bond with my dog or my best friend or my other siblings. My brother and I are connected. I feel it in every fibre of my being. <br><br>I know some of you may not believe in twin flames or may think it’s just a fancy term for a strong connection with someone. I don’t really care, I’ve never felt this way before and I know I won’t again. I love my brother so much and I know that I’ll love him forever. No one else could ever make me feel the way he does.