How many people on this sub would still be alive if you had the option to go back in time and change the path that made your life the way it is today?

I want to die. I have no kids but I have two dogs who I love and take care of and I am terrified of someone coming and taking them from me. I have no family, no friends, no job, and no prospects of any of these things. I have no home, car, bank account, money, phone, or any material possessions. I don’t even have the ability to afford a bus ticket. I am so low I feel like I have hit the very bottom and there’s no way for me to fall any further. My body is shot from years of malnutrition and I am constantly cold, sick, and tired, and I can’t remember the last time I felt any sense of pride in myself or my life. I don’t see any other option than to end it all. I know this sub is focused on the extreme gender issues but I don’t see why other forms of trauma shouldn’t be included. I don’t think men are better than women but I do think they have it easier in some ways.