How did we get here?

I have been with my gf for a short time.....1 month now. I made an earnest effort to be open and honest with her about things in life that can be considered bad or evil or problematic. I told her that I am not perfect and that I have done things that I am not proud of that were motivated by greed, selfishness, evil, and just plain trauma.<br><br>I told her about men and women that I have hurt in the past and how.....1 day.... that can be considered to be in the past. I told her that I have a younger brother that is currently homeless that I have not seen in over a year. I told her about my passive aggressive sister that I dont speak with anymore because I thought we were friends and I found out we werent. I told her that I have no savings and a huge credit card debt. I told her about my previous marriages and how I attempted suicide two times because of my previous marriages.<br><br>I told her I was bipolar and didnt take meds and that I was slightly overweight and drank too much.<br><br>1 month into dating. I am an angel. I am a white knight that is the best thing that has ever happened to her. I am the love of her life. I am the only person that ever even tried to be good to her..... ever.