White knight here

Hello, my first post here. I used to be a passionate feminist, at least as much as a guy can be, which is probably not that much.<br>I was always very careful to never hit a womann even when I was in relationships which ended up in a fight. I guess I had the whiteknight syndrome as you call it here.<br>The first bigger wake up call was when I dated a very nice and attractive girl. We had sex, we were happy, everything went perfect. Than one day, she went partying with friends and after that she was very sad because one of her friends (a girle) was beaten_home by her bf for going to a party.<br>She was a feminist and I shared her views. But than I had an argument with a feminist friend of hers. She said men are oppressive because they can't control emotions and they hit their partner.<br>But the boyfriend of the beaten up girl was black. I asked her than are black men oppressive too, as she was batteting.<br>After that she became very aggresive and insulted me.<br>But I was still a feminist.<br>After that two more things happened.<br>First was that I had a conversation with a womann (a friend). She told me that she was once in a relationship with a man, they had fights and she hit him with a plate, because he was a bad partner.<br>I asked her what did he did wrong. She said he had smaller penis than expected.<br>I told here that hitting someone is not ok. She said that off course for a man to hit a womann is a big no, we agreed on that. I told her that women should never hit a man too. She told me that a womann is never gonna hurt a man with a slap in the face or a plate.<br>Than I told her that if I ever find myself in a relationship and my gf/wife would hit me, first chance I get I'm gonna slap here in the face and end the relationship.<br>She told me that women will never be arrested and send to jail for hitting a man, men always go to jail.<br><br>But I was still a feminist, I thought she was just a bad apple.<br>After that I started dating an other girl which I liked very much. I told her from the very start that I never ever hit a womann, I very much respect that and I hope she feels the same way.<br>She agreed. We lived happily for about 1 year.<br>After that one day we had a dispute in a restaurant. I told her that we should stop cause people around us are starting to look.<br>She got mad and told me I should wear a dress to show my feminism. I laughed at here and told her that I'm not that kind of a man. She got madder and slapped me in my face in front of everybody and called me a weake, pathetic, unevolved man.<br>I told here this relationship is over and I stood up and left.<br>She tried to make up several times, even called my mother asking her to talk to me, but I didn't want anything to do with here.<br>After all these happening in a short period of time I realized that feminism is not about equality of the genders.<br>So we broke up.<br>After that I started to read online, other stories from men.<br>And here I am.