I’m crazy, I’m not crazy, I’m super duper extra crazy.

this is a story I’ve never told anyone before, it dates back to about 2012 when I was going through some severe mental health issues with very little help, it was a bleak time in my life.<br><br>Something happened to me though, something super duper extra. This story will be called “I’m crazy, I’m not crazy, I’m SUPER DUPER EXTRA CRRRRAAAAAYYY”<br><br>I remember being locked in my room, which was basically the only place I could handle being outside of bed, I had a desktop computer there, yeah its a super duper extra story in more ways then one, it was around 2-3 A.M. and I was “surfing the web” on internet explorer, I remember the sound of my front door opening, and my heart racing, knowing my family had been asleep for hours I got that sick feeling in my stomach immediately knowing something wasn’t right and being alone in my room, so I did the only thing I could think of in the moment, I fuckin’ shit my pants. I’m crazy. <br><br>Then I hear footsteps coming from the hallway, my heart pounding, no one was supposed to be there, especially not at that hour, footsteps that sounded like someone was trying to be as loud as possible, so I hear the thumping, and it gets louder, and now I’m balls deep in paranoia and anxiety, it was at the door, then that voice brought me to my knees, in a good way, it sounded like my crazy ass aunt, the one that was notorious for showing up at random hours and knocking on random doors. <br><br>I said “AUNT-XXXXX IS THAT YOU” I’m not crazy. <br><br>There was silence for a few seconds followed by a voice that said “yea, its aunt-XXXXX”, I was relieved, I had just had a severe paranoid episode, but I was now safe, I wasn’t crazy. <br><br>It was then I got up from my computer chair, and walked to the door, but before I got there I got that sick feeling in my stomach again, something felt off, I looked back at my computer monitor, and what I saw on the screen took my breath away and dropped me to my knees into my shit, there on my computer screen, in the search bar was “how to get out of a mental institution” and the first search result read “i’m crazy, i’m not crazy, i’m SUPER DUPER EXTRA CRRRRAAAAAYYYYY, GET DOWN ON YOUR KNEES AND WORSHIP HER, FOR SHE IS YOUR GOD.” I’m super duper extra crazy.<br><br>I don’t know what happened after that, it was 2012, and I hadn’t figured out how to take screenshots yet, I had forgotten about it until looking back on my past, but that’s my story of SUPER DUPER EXTRA CRRRRAAAAAYYYYY, hope you enjoyed it.