I lied to the girl I was dating and said I had been in a relationship before

When I was 18 I met this amazing girl from another country. We met online, and initially planned a vacation together in her home contry. We met a few times and I was in love. It was the best feeling I ever had. I was so excited we started talking about future plans. I was so happy.<br><br>After knowing her for a few months she started asking about our future together. I got nervous that she didnt know my relationship backround -my first and only boyfriend cheated on me as soon as we started dating - so I decided to lie to her. I know I know it was horrible and I can admit now that it was a horrible thing to do. I said I had been dating one other guy, but that I had actually been in 0 real relationships. I felt so bad about what I did, continuously worried that she would find out, and felt like if she really liked me she would actually like her. Of course, she never found out, and it's been so many years that are in a serious and healthy relationship. I confess.<br><br>Edit: we started talking early in the pandemic when dating in person was not allowed. Thats why we did it so quickly. I didnt "assemble a girl", just stumbled on someone online. I was 18 and I dont speak her native language, she speaks near perfect English. Call me an idiot if you want to. I was just a kid in love. I was scared she would find out and leave me. And I know that I did something horrible. I decided not to keep her in the dark about anything after that.