I'm not going to lie I'm kinda scared of men

I am a trans female and I've always been afraid of men. I've been assaulted, bullied, and harassed countless times in my life. I was married to my ex and I still don't really like him because he was always so aggressive towards me and made me feel so uncomfortable. I feel like I've never really found a partner that understands me and doesn't make me feel so afraid. I feel like I'm living in a constant state of fear and I just wish I could feel safe around men.