How to mistakenly fall in love with a guy while casually hooking up?

I've been hooking up with this guy for a little over a year. The longest I've gone without being sexually active for more than 2 weeks and I haven't had a steady relationship for 8 months. He wanted to be my boy toy I was his girl toy. We never hung out. He just showed up to my apartment and we would simply hook up. <br><br>He always made getting off so easy and I was never sore after. He never tried any weird stuff or kinks. He just was always on point. I would comp him a free week of meals from my meal delivery service. <br><br>One day I called him excessively- I don't know why. I couldn't stop calling him. I think I called him 3 times in one day. He would come over and I would suddenly get anxious that he was going to think I wanted him less than he wanted me. I didn't want to be "that girl. I remember the first time I texted him that I was horny and wanted him to come over, but my mom was in town. He said okay and that he'd come over when my mom left. My mom ended up leaving and he was like "okay what's the address" and I was like omg is he telling me he's going to come over. I was so excited, but still nervous. You know how you can read the body language of a guy, tell if he'd interested or not or where he's at. I turned that feature right off for him. <br><br>I think we've hung out maybe 5 times since we started commuting. I remember going to dinner with him and feeling so nervous. I don't know why. It was like I had forgotten how to talk to guys. He was always so sweet and so friendly. I remember he said to me once when I was over at his place that "I'm a great listener until I fall asleep." And then he fell asleep right in front of me like he was trying to prove it. <br><br>I can't fall asleep. I keep thinking about him. I can't relax. My heart keeps racing. I mistakenly have these feelings. I think we've been together for too long to be just hookup buddies at this point. I feel like I have nothing left to give or I've lost myself in him. He'd text me how much he enjoyed me. I would never initiate anything like that with him. Yesterday, I texted him and said I wish I could do this forever. And he just said ya forever!-fr<br><br>Can a girl mistakenly fall in love with a guy? Are there any other ladies out there who felt the same way? How did you get over it?<br><br>TLDR: I have feelings for my fuckbuddy and it sucks.