I have been high for over a year now.

I'm 15 and I took a Perc 10 outside of school, not knowing what it was. Started feeling sick and out of it. I thought nothing of it until the next day when I didn't stop throwing up and couldn't walk. The words "fentanyl" and "overdose" came up a lot. At the time I was already used to hearing those things but they were totally new to me. I was extremely shaken by the experience, but I'm glad I made it out alive. My friends told me I'd feel totally normal after a couple of days, I should be grateful I didn't end up dead, and that they'd be checking on me a lot over the next few days. I never really got used to how it felt, nor could I shake the shaken feeling. It's been a long time. I frequently have severe shakes, but I'm glad I'm not dead. Yes I do drugs regularly, but I know what I'm doing at this point. Don't worry about it, I know some of you may judge me but deep down you care a lot. Very thankful for that.<br><br>EDIT: I thought this would get some karma here on confessions. For some reason it got removed, perhaps I accidentally posted in the wrong place. Not sure why as I literally didn't know what I was taking. Anyway, I'm back here now. <br><br>To clear some things up: I am NOT addicted to Percs. I don't even like them. Like I said in the post, I thought nothing of it until my reaction was obviously very bad. I had no clue what a Perc was at the time. My friends were the ones who were regularly taking drugs, that's why they knew what I should expect when I overdoes on a drug I'd never heard of. <br><br>I'm not sure how much I can share but I am aware it's illegal to be high at 15. This is my own problem, I'll deal with it. No one has died yet from this, (I know how lucky I am) but the real problem is my friends. They DO have an addiction problem. I frequently expressed my concerns, but my friends were older and didn't care. I am now trying to distance myself from them. They don't do drugs out of sadness, they do drugs to cope with the pressure of school. I am the only one who has an actual traumatic experience. They do have an addiction problem, I do not.<br><br>I do not regularly do fentynal. Once again, I am fully aware what I am taking now. I don't like stimulants or anything that makes me feel uneasy, so it's mostly weed. I frequently have severe reactions to drugs but I am familiar with what I'm taking. I am 100% aware this is a problem. I was in denial for the longest time but I'm finally trying to get help. Thank you to everyone who commented. Please don't worry about me, but I do encourage you to spread awareness about fentynal to the people around you.<br><br>EDIT 2: I am seeing a therapist. I'm going to continue to hang out with people who sell drugs but I am going to stop doing them. This is NOT an easy process. I'm feeling pressure from my friends and family, and I understand why. I'm not doing it to cope with anything, I do it with my friends. I understand that's no excuse, I'm going to continue to go through with getting treatment. I will not stop until i stop doing drugs. I am fully aware this is a problem, and I will continue to work on it. Thank you again to all of the people who reached out. No I am not allowed to share any more details about my personal life. Thank you to everyone who gave me advice. I've been reading every comment and I will try to follow as much of it as possible. Thank you all. 🙏❤️