I was stalked at a Shitty punk rock bar

I used to go to a dive bar that had stuck itself in the crust of a shitty part of town that has now gentrified into a shrine to expensive mexican food. That bar used to have a bunch of really rad punk shows and the like. One night, I went there with a bunch of friends for a show. The show was really great. The bands were all shit, but it got everyone in a rowdy mood. I had just dropped out of school and I was in a crazy transition period in my life. I was drinking way more than usual and spending waaayyyy too much time at the bar, because it felt like one of the only places I could go where I could fit in and feel semi-alive again. I was also commuting to a new job and it would be 10 before I was done, so the bar was a late night fix before bed. That night, I got too drunk. It was embarassing. I started talking to an older man and he was buying me drinks all night. I had just gotten a new haircut and he was hitting on me hard, touching my hair and my arms and I was way too drunk to know how to get out of it. He was worried I was gonna throw up, so he walked me outside and we were standing next to the door. I was telling him about my haircut and how I was an asshole to the hairdresser because I had just woken up and was too hungover at the time. That's when I threw up. I'm glad I didn't throw up on him, but it was still embarassing as fuck. I didn't even move, I just let it drip out of my mouth and down my shirt. That's when he started kissing me. I tried to pull away but he was holding my arms down. I got a couple of good hits in and then I started screaming and crying, and I told him my boyfriend was coming and he said “Oh, so you have a boyfriend, why you flirting with me then?” I told him to fuck off and ran inside. I found a friend who stayed with me for the rest of the night and I ended up driving him home after that cause I was suddenly not drunk anymore. I don't think I've had anything to drink since. That was almost 3 years ago and I haven't had a sip of booze since.<br><br>I don't even know why I posted this, I just wanted to write it out.<br><br>EDIT: I feel like I need to clarify, I am not blaming the drinking for the assaulter's actions. I am not a drinker because it doesn't mix with my mental health. I was blaming it on the drinking when I initially posted this, I am fully aware that it is 100% the fault of the guy that assaulted me.