Does anyone else feel like they would actually be a better person for everyone around them if they were a sex offender?

I can't be the only person who feels like all of the things I could do for my extended family would be for nothing, after realizing on new years day 2022 that I'd love to have sex with my 11 year old niece, and that this feeling isn't going away. I actually do love her and would do anything for her, but I'm just so convinced that my attraction to her makes me a lesser person all around.