I'm a child of incest

I'm 14 and my mum and dad are siblings. My current situation is that my older sister and I are being shunned from our family for 2 years now, I've heard it's because they're unhappy that my dad cheated on my mum and somehow that makes it my fault. My older sister doesn't speak about it either.<br><br>I'm also starting to feel like my mum hates me because she doesn't listen to me, she constantly is worried I'll befriend people and spill the secret about how my dad cheated. She asked me if I got bullied in school and I answered yes then she said "it's your fault because of the dark cloud hanging above your head". I'm starting to hate my family and even myself. My dad even said it was my fault he cheated on my mum, he's always saying this like it's an appropriate thing to say to me as a daughter. I've heard my parents talking about how to make me marry some guy who doesn't know what he's getting in to. <br><br>After hearing their chats I'm afraid they're gonna get me married to some relative so it doesn't get out. I've heard my dad talking to my uncle about how a daughter marries who her parents want. I hate my life and I'm trying to find myself in all of this. <br><br>Why am I so shamed and embarrassed by them for no reason? It's really hard to accept this situation I've been put in to and I'm tired of avoiding talking about it, I just need someone to share it with.