The lack of empathy from men

I’m just so frustrated. I am a feminist and I’ve been studying men and why they’re so bad. I’m not a man-hater but I’ve always thought men are more superior than women. My mom told me that it’s a lie and that men are more insecure than women and they try to hide it. <br><br>Well, I have a first hand experience with my bf. He’s an absolute d*ck. He is emotionally abusive and I am trying to stay with him because I have nowhere to go. I just feel like a worthless piece of s*it. <br><br>I told him about how I have a job interview and he said “wow that’s a lot of effort for a job”. I feel like it’s a stupid comment. But he doesn’t care and I don’t know how to fix it. I want to make him happy and feel loved and I’m trying but it’s hard when he’s so toxic and doesn’t even care about what I feel.<br><br>I’ve tried talking to him and explaining how his words hurt me. He just says “I was just joking” or “it’s just a comment”. It’s not a joke to me. It’s a harsh comment and he’s not even trying to make me feel good. I just wish he was more empathetic and caring but he just isn’t.<br><br>I feel like he doesn’t love me anymore. I feel like I’m just a piece of sh*t that he uses for fun. I really don’t know how to feel anymore. I feel like I don’t even matter to him. He doesn’t even care about me and I just wish he would.