I was honestly so sure that I was going to be a Chad.

I was so sure that I was going to be the popular kid when I grew up and be able to “get any girl I wanted”. Literally my whole life I was convinced that I was not an outcast, I just hadn’t grown into myself yet. <br><br>I remember telling my middle school friends “guys I’m going to start hitting the gym. By the end of high school I’m going to be a Chad”. I was bullied and ostracized my whole middle school and I think subconsciously I just wanted to “get back” at all the people who wronged me by being a popular Chad and then just - ignore them. I was so convinced that things would magically change in high school and I would start putting the “work in”.<br><br>Didn’t happen. Ended up being more socially outcast than ever. Nobody likes me and everyone treats me like an odd alien creature that they don’t understand. Never put the “work in” and I just - crumbled like the pathetic loser that I am.<br><br>All I ever wanted was to be a normal person that people liked. <br><br>Life is shit and it doesn’t get better. It just stays shit for everyone.