its honestly insane that anyone would want to "cure" us

i moved through the ranks of: <br><br>happy go lucky chad underclassman -> depressed and lonely chad who quit sports -> self-loathing insecure loner -> roleplaying as a cringe weirdo loner -> attempting to become a advincee and then realised how fake it was -> incel now<br><br>and honestly through my whole journey, NPC men always like to try to "cure" me.<br><br>my freshmen year of high school i had a really hard time adjusting and used to go to the counselor and vent about how i didn't have any friends. and you know what he asked me? he asked me if i wanted to join a sports team since i was on one in my middle school and i used to like it. and you know what i did? i said sure and went and joined the lacrosse team. then went to my first practice and in one of the drills, i tripped on the grass and fell and sprained my ankle in front of everyone. it was such a humiliating moment and i went home from lacrosse practice in tears of sadness and embarrassment. <br><br>my guidance counselor from high school used to do this whole shtick on me called "cognitive behavioral therapy" where i had to write down all my negative thoughts and then write opposite sentences that "prove them wrong" lol.<br><br>my dad used to send me on those really cringe manadatory dates where i would go to like the zoo or a park or some shit with some random girl and i would always feel really fucking awkward.<br><br>the most humiliating experience for me was when i told my therapist that i was suicidal and she responded by saying that my problems like my acne and lack of friends was nothing compared to real issues people suffer like being disabled or having mental illness. and then moved on to the next topic.<br><br>i went to like 2 different therapists in my late teens and one of them was literally a gypsy and she told me she had a vision of me being very successful in my career and that i would hook up with a lot of women. i think she was literally just gaslighting me because she knew i was about to ghost her and stop paying her stupid gypsy stupid fees. honestly i wish she was right though.<br><br>i thought joining the gym was going to help me. it didn't. i worked out for a long ass time. i worked out so much that i honestly think it might be fucking up my joints or something. i went from skelly to being pretty fucking jacked only to find out no women are attracted to me. <br><br>going to a barber really short worked for a while, but once my hair started growing back it went back to its same old shittiness. <br><br>and now i am an incel. and i am really starting to feel like i don't need to be "cured". i don't see what is so wrong with me. i don't even see anything wrong with being suicidal.<br><br>alright so recently my mom started asking me if i wanted to get therapy recently and i told her no. then she asked if i would go to therapy if i could choose the therapist and i told her no again. then she asked why and i told her it was because stupid, arrogant, self-absorbed people who use mountains of jargon with no credentials have no ability to help me with my problems and that the world really needs to stop shaming people for wanting to kill themselves and that there is no "cure" for people like me.<br><br>and you know what she said? she said, "who should i take you to, what would make you happy?"<br><br>i think everyone who wants to "cure" us incels is so arrogant and fucking stupid. literally no one has any idea what we need in order to be happy. literally no one knows how to give us what we want deep down. the world really moved past being like "oh this guy is small and weak? well he should fight back!" moved past "oh he is poor and destitute? he must simply work harder!" why can't it move past the mindset of "oh he is suicidal and lonely? he must change!"<br><br>i swear stupid people anger me so much.<br><br>EDIT: if you are going to post for the sake of post history, i am gay and i like to do anal play with dildos in my free time and i enjoy lasagna from olive garden