I think I might hate having children.

I’m 30 years old. I have three kids, and every day I worry that I made a huge mistake by having them. I had my first child when I was 19 years old. We were young, and we weren’t ready to have kids, but we made it work. We’re now expecting our third child, and I feel so lost. <br><br>The thing is, I love my kids. They mean the world to me. I feel so lucky to have all that I have for Christmas, birthdays, and other special occasions. But I hate taking care of a baby. How do other moms make this look so easy? I feel very overwhelmed by all the responsibilities that I have. I have one baby, a toddler, and a preschooler, and it’s hard to keep up with all of them. I do all of the housework, cooking, and cleaning on top of changing diapers and taking them to appointments, and some days it just feels too much. <br><br>I always wanted to be the mom who could travel with all of her kids to other countries and teach them all about different cultures and ways of life. But I can barely afford taking them to the grocery store without losing my mind, and some days I can barely even take care of myself. I also wish I could spend all day with them, but I need to make money and work a full-time job. So I feel like I fail either way, either I’m neglecting work to spend time with my kids, or I’m working so much that I barely see my kids. <br><br>I wish I could just be happy with having kids. I would truly be very happy if I could be happy raising them. But it’s so hard for me, and some days I don’t think I can afford to keep making it work.