I finally went to therapy for my depression and found out that I actually hate my wife and kids.

My ex gave birth to my monozygotic twin sons a year ago. But I decided not to stay in the relationship. Mostly because my wife has a "motivation" problem and is very lazy. I also suffer from depression and sleep disorder. I thought that my depression was caused by my stressful job and lack of exercise.<br><br>I recently found out that I no longer love my ex, I started to dislike her even more. I couldn't stand seeing her anymore. I didn't even want to see her photos. It made me feel guilty and I realized that I needed to see a therapist. Of course, he asked me about my childhood. I am a twin myself and grew up in a very happy family. My mother never made any monozygotic twin jokes and my twin sister and I never had any problems.<br><br>I told my therapist about my ex and his children. The therapist asked me if I was always this way, and if I was always lazy and unmotivated. I told him I was already like this as a child. I used to lie in my room all day. When I went to high school, my parents said they would buy me a puppy if I went to school. Then they realized that I was happy with animals and they had a dog and a cat.<br><br>After a few sessions with my therapist, I realized that I really hate my ex. Her voice makes me feel sick. When she sends me photos of our twins, I feel disgusted and don't even look at them. I made it clear to my therapist that I don't love my children. I love animals, but humans are disgusting to me. I also went to the zoo with my twin sister and saw chimps.<br><br>Seems I have autism. I'm quitting my job because I want to have time for animals. I want a good life.