I just begin to give up.

Few days ago I thought I will end it but then I met a girl and it all stopped, I found myself in better place but now I'm all over that place, really. <br><br>I found out I'm 170 cm tall, not only that I'm very skinny 59kg. It's pathetic.<br><br>I'ma get fat now, or I just decline to end it all. <br><br>I'm on way to look up therapist, I'm 23 and already decided that I'll never find a woman I love because I'm not fit for this life, I hate myself, I feel repulsive. <br><br>I'm also full of zits on my neck, those are so huge and disgusting. I hate everything about me. <br><br>How can anyone tell me to do better in life when I look like the inside of moldy bread?