I'm probably the most beautiful guy in the world and yet I'm still incel.

Hello, I'm beautiful. Like, ridiculously beautiful. I've always known this as far back as I can remember. Even as a kid, people would tell me how beautiful I was. The word 'beautiful' was attached to my name, like it was an adjective. But, you know, at that time, I just assumed they meant 'handsome.' Men can be handsome, but not beautiful, correct?<br><br>Growing up, I was usually mistaken for a girl, even if I was dressed like a boy. I had very long hair and I took care of it a lot. My hair was actually my pride when I was little, even more beautiful looking than my mom's. I mean, I'm Asian, and I think we Asians probably have the best hair in the world, so you get the idea. <br><br>Since I was little, I've been called 'princess' many times by random people. They genuinely mistook me for one so yeah, it was kind of annoying, but I let it go every time. I think they were successfully fooled because they often asked me to do traditionally feminine stuff like chores, and they even asked me to babysit when I was only like 9 years old while dads played some sport, or whatever. So, me doing all these 'feminine' stuff probably confused them even more, thinking I was a more feminine person, i.e. a girl, because yes, I had very long hair. The haircut I had was also very flowy. I always wore my hair down, so when I walked in front of people, my hair swished a lot. And it always smelled nice because I genuinely take care of my hair a lot. <br><br>At school, I was very popular because everyone thought I was beautiful. I don't know how successfully I fooled others, but I was probably considered the prettiest girl in my elementary school class, as far as I know. Or maybe they just considered me one of the prettiest girls, I don't know, but I was definitely considered very pretty by everyone. But I think it's true when I say prettiest girl because I'm 110% sure that I was more beautiful than any girl in my class. Boys were obviously far from me in terms of beauty (I'm not bragging, I know this is a fact). And I was asked out many times by boys as well, but I think they asked me out because they thought I was this really pretty girl that they had to get. Or maybe some boys just thought I was cute, and they were just daring enough to ask me out.<br><br>One of my earliest memories was one time when I was like 8 or 9, a new student joined our class, and she walked up to me and asked if I was a girl or a boy. And I said I was a boy, and she was like, "oh really??" So she walked away and then she came back to me and asked me again, "are you sure you're a boy?" So I told her yes, I'm positive. Then she asked me, "If you're a boy, then why do you look like a girl?" So I told her, "I don't know. I don't look like a boy, I look like a girl, but I'm a boy." Then she was like, "oh, I thought you were a pretty girl." <br><br>I fell for this girl in my class, and then one day she walked past me and said 'I love you.' I was so happy, I thought she was my girlfriend then. But it turned out that she was just screwing around with her friends, because they all said 'I love you' to random people. But I didn't know that at the time, so I drew her a picture of two stick figures kissing each other. The figures were both girls. She was the blonde one. I was the black-haired one. (I don't know why I made myself black-haired, but it was probably because my hair was black, duh.) So I gave her the drawing and she successfully tricked me into thinking she loved me for real. But yeah, I'm a dumbass, I thought that if someone said 'I love you' to me then they actually loved me. And so I was so happy and I thought it was real love. Just to be clear, I wasn't in love, I just thought I had a girlfriend. So I though I had a gf in grade school, but yeah, I'm stupid, so I thought she really loved me. And I was really happy to know she loved me, but yeah, I'm stupid, so I didn't know any better. And when she tricked me, I was really happy, because I had never had a gf before, and I thought I was very lucky to have such a pretty gf. I know this is pretty pathetic, but I fell for her trick because I successfully tricked people myself into thinking I was a pretty girl, because let's be real, I'M A REALLY, REALLY BEAUTIFUL GUY. So I thought it was real because I played the same trick on people. So when she said 'I love you,' successfully tricked me into thinking it was real, because yeah, I'm stupid. <br><br>And then I grew older and became more self-aware, and yet when I was like 18 or something, I met a family friend, and she said, "You're so beautiful, like this Korean actress" (I don't remember who she said, but yeah, I was compared to a really, really beautiful woman). So yeah, I'm a really beautiful guy, probably the prettiest guy in the world.<br><br>But yet, I'm still an incel, because the only people who ever liked me were probably men and genuinely thought I was a girl. Yeah, I know, it sounds pathetic. I'm probably the most beautiful guy in the world and I'm still alone, and nobody likes me successfully, except for men, because they thought I was a girl.