The most offensive thing my gf has ever said to me

You see this is a heavy one for me to finally talk about. I need your guys advice on what to say but it just hurts so much. <br><br>Me and my gf will be 5 years together in a few days and 3 years ago we moved in together. I struggled to find a job after my apprenticeship but in the end I got one and we were living comfortably together. We were going to plans and going on holidays and finally able to live the life that we were able to live when we were at uni. We had our little ups and downs but we were happy together. <br><br>Then Covid hit, I got made redundant before we went into lockdown and covid really affected our relationship. I was so so unlucky I applied to over 100 jobs and didn’t get one call back and it was really effecting me. My anxiety and depression hit me so hard. I knew it wasn’t my fault but I couldn’t stop feeling like a failure. Then one day she said to me in front of her family “you failed me!” <br><br>I just broke down I couldn’t get my words out. She apologised to me and we talked and I said that how I’m feeling is hard and that it’s how she has made me feel like I failed her. She said that it was just the words that came out and she can’t take them back. I said that I know she didn’t mean it but can’t take back how I feel. <br><br>We took some time apart from each other. I tried to get jobs, I volunteered, I did anything to stop myself feeling like a failure. She took some time to see that she needs to support me. When lockdown finished and she went back to work she suggested that I go back to uni. She wanted me to do an IT course. I went on the open day, I applied for the course, I got in and now I’m in my 2nd year. <br><br>She’s been really supportive of me with my depression and stuff and recently I finally got a job. The feelings that she gave me still hurt me though. Every time I try to bring it up she just says that she can’t take back what she said. <br><br>What can I say? How can I get her to see?<br><br>**tl;dr my gf said I failed her, she can’t take back her words and it just hurts. What can I say to her?**