My mom would had aborted me if she had the chance

I'm 13 (M) and I'm an incel...I am a burden my mother never wanted. She was using meth while she was pregnant with me and it fucked up part of my brain. My mother didn't even try to quit drinking or doing drugs until I was about 2 yrs old. I'm mainly non-verbal and have meltdowns because my brain is wired different. I have been diagnosed with ADHD, Bipolar Disorder, OCD, and Autism. I am in 8th grade and taking 5th grade classes. I have an aide with me at all times and I still barely pass. I don't think I will ever be able to become an adult and live on my own. <br><br>I wish my birthmother would have just aborted me instead of giving me up for adoption. This life sucks ass and I don't see the point of even trying to succeed since I will never be successful in anything.