I walked in on my best friend fucking my boyfriend.

Something really weird happened to me a couple of months ago. It was something that I felt would go away easily. But I'm not really sure now. <br><br>When I was 13, I joined an extracurricular club. I didn't know anyone in the club, but the students were just about my age so I joined easily. My best friend walked in during a culture festival and even though I was embarrassed that she embarrassed me, I was so happy to see her. I asked her once if she liked my boyfriend and she said no. So that was a big relief. <br><br>We started dating in senior high. He was the basketball club captain and I was in love with him so I was right there cheering him on. My best friend and I were in the desk next to each other for most of my high school years, and he was in the desk in front of me. One day they started dating out of boredom and broke up. But ever since then, the three of us were inseparable. <br><br>That may have been a mistake. <br><br>As I said, my boyfriend is my best friend's ex-boyfriend and my best friend was my boyfriend's ex-girlfriend. But like I said, we were like one big happy family. You might think that it was weird to have an ex as your friend, but for us, it was just normal. <br><br>So when my best friend and I entered college, it was just like when we're in highschool. We were roommates, and they were just a normal male and female friend to us. That was until that day. I come in from my 8 am class and see her riding him. And he was just staring at her with a gutted expression. She was so loud that she didn't notice that I was there, but he did. I didn't bother them and like the good girl that I am, I closed the door and went back out. <br><br>And the weirdest thing is, nothing changed. I never felt any resentment toward them and even though I feel betrayed and hurt, I want to help them. They started dating again and I'm actually happy. They told me that it was a mistake and that they couldn't forgive themselves and that they needed just one more time. But I can tell that they didn't mean it. <br><br>I'm really seeing them in a different light and I realise that I love the boyfriend that I've been dating. I don't really know how to act in this situation and I really need some help so I'm turning to Reddit. Somehow I feel hurt and betrayed but also happy for the two of them. I don't really know how to act. <br><br>The three of us have been together since we were kids. The youngest that we got together was 13. I have loved him since I was 13, so the first time he hurt me was when he started dating her. He was hers before he was mine, so I've always been Jealous when it comes to that. He was too good looking and too kind. He'd always give me my lunch money and gave me his share of the good things. They've always looked out for me and they've always been on my side. <br><br>They'd do anything for me, even if it meant breaking up with each other. I think that part of why I'm taken aback is because they're not eventhinking about how I would feel. They've always been thoughtful of me. When I was in my depression years ago, they were there to help me out. They'd always been there for me as a family. So how could they do this behind my back? <br><br>I know that I'm not an angel. In fact, I really hate the two of them right now. I hate how much I love them. I hate how I would even forgive them for hurting me. So much so that I'm happy for them right now. I really want them to be happy and I know that this is a big chance for the two of them to be happy together. <br><br>They're the love of my life and I love them so much that I want them to be happy, and I know that they'll get that with each other. I want them to be happy and I wish I could be happy for them.