I lie to my boyfriend about my plan to have a baby soon.

My boyfriend doesn’t want a baby and plans to focus on his job first. We have been together for about 8 years.<br>He started to take pills in the middle of last year, which his doctor says may affect his fertility soon.<br>His balls are swollen and he says he's in pain and plans to stop taking them.<br>He said he loves me and we are family so he will stop taking them.<br>But he won’t come to a decision and I know why he’s hesitant because he’s not ready to be a dad and he loves to fool around.<br>So I started my period of pregnancies 2 months ago and he has no idea about it.<br>I know I can make him have sex with me anytime I want so I don’t say no to him.<br>I also hide my period and he has no idea about it.<br>He has no idea I'm actually taking birth control and he believes I'm just going to stop having my period someday.<br>He knows that I feel sad that I'm not pregnant yet, but I think it's the best decision to conceive a baby and he will know that I'm actually pregnant after.<br>He will feel no pressure and have no idea that I tricked him because I’ll be really pregnant with his baby.<br>It's okay if he's not ready to be a dad. He will love his child and I want to try harder to make him happy and feel loved and so I’m making this decision.<br>By the way, he was the guy who was a couch potato.<br>I actually cooked for him and helped him with all the household chores and I was the one who made him have regular exercise or jogging.<br>He started to take his workout seriously and he says that he can’t imagine that he used to live a lazy life.<br>He's more confident now and sometimes he jokes that I’m his wife.<br>I love him so much and I want to spend the rest of my life with him though he never talked about marriage with me.<br>I would do anything for him.<br>He's not the person I plan to marry someday.<br>I know it's not right that I keep this from him, but I know he will be a dad one day because he is actually a family man.