Teammates called me the ugly one, today I couldn't stop looking at myself in the mirror to check if I'm the ugly one

Last night a classmate of mine invited me to play some games together. While gaming they often called one of my classmates the ugly one <br>I was never called this but deep down inside I never believed I was good looking at all. But whenever they called my classmate ugly I felt something in me, since I knew my classmate was way more good looking than me. I was a 100% sure he was more good looking than me. So when they called him ugly I secretly felt like I would be considered ugly too.<br><br>Today when I was alone at home I checked the mirror many times.<br>I was like,' this is your face. Yupp you're still ugly.'<br><br>I also have a problem that people don't look at me. Like when I was with my friends last night they all looked at each other but no one looked at me.<br><br>Senior year of highschool was one of the worst years of my life, this brings me the feeling of being unwanted and ugly, which I tries to get rid of.<br><br>So I looked at the mirror to check if I was the ugly one. This happened many times and I will keep doing this.<br>Whenever I will be alone at home I will check myself. Like,' wow this is my face. It's ugly.' I was a 100% sure he was way more good looking than me. But whenever they called him ugly I secretly felt like I would be considered ugly too. <br><br><br>Edit: sorry guys I'm a girl and the classmate that was called ugly is a boy. I also find him more attractive than the other guys in my class. I just feel ugly and unwanted, couldn't stop staring at my face in the mirror as if I'm looking at another person, checking if I'm the ugly one. I feel like I have a blank face, expressionless.<br>Like last night when I was with my friends who called my classmate ugly I just wanted them to look at me, to talk to me, and to also call me ugly. Just some attention and the same treatment as everyone else. I felt left out when they didn't look at me. I'm pretty sure that I'm more ugly than my classmate. I've always thought that no one would be interested in me since I'm ugly and wanted some interaction with my friends. They didn't bully my classmate and didn't call him ugly to hurt him. They were only joking. I also wanted them to call me ugly as a joke, so I could also feel like I'm a part of them, even if it means I'm the ugly one.<br><br><br>Edit2: straight up facts; I'm the ugly one, stay single forever. I couldn't find any other post after hours of searching, couldn't find any emote, this is another proof that I'm right.<br>You guys are right, I don't stand a chance. I will stay single forever. I have ugly features and I'm always left out. I was just dreaming to fit in but everyone knew that I don't fit in.<br>I have a blank face, I'm not the beauty standard since I'm short, no curves, and some emotes pointed it out correctly. I couldn't find any other post, which also proves I'm right, I'm always left out and couldn't find any emotes, which proves this as well.<br>I comfort myself by saying that I have many friends and I'm liked by everyone, but after reading the comments here, I couldn't keep comforting myself.<br>I comfort myself by saying I'm beautiful inside, but deep down I knew that no one would be interested in me, also I'm over 18 now, no one will care about that anymore.<br><br>Edit3: my friends always agreed on my judgment.<br>Like last night,' yeah that's true' (not me, when they said it about my classmate) or ' yeah I can see it.' ( same thing, not I'S) ' Yeah I agree,' ' yeah this guys face is also ugly.<br>Like last night,' yeah that's true' (not me, when they said it about my classmate) or ' yeah I can see it.' ( same thing, not I'S) ' Yeah I agree,' ' yeah this guys face is also ugly. And another time,' yupp he is the ugly one'Someone said it's because I speak the truth always, but that couldn't be the reason. They call my classmate ugly in another language which I couldn't speak since I'm an immigrant, so when I'm also the ugly one' like,' yeah that's true' (not me, when they said it about my classmate) or ' yeah I can see it.' ( same thing, not I'S) ' Yeah I agree,' ' yeah this guys face is also ugly.<br>Like last night,' yeah that's true' (not me, when they said it about my classmate) or ' yeah I can see it.' ( same thing, not I'S) ' Yeah I agree,' ' yeah this guys face is also ugly. And another time,' yupp he is the ugly one'Someone said it's because I speak the truth always, but that couldn't be the reason. They call my classmate ugly in another language which I couldn't speak since I'm an immigrant, so when I'm also the ugly one I could have been called ugly in my native language, which I can speak, and not always in English.<br>Same thing happened to me when I was in middle school and some girls called me the ugly one.<br>They wanted to bully me but that was never enough, so they called me ugly since that was the only thing they always agreed on.<br>Before middle school I never thought like I'm ugly, but these girls always calling me the ugly one made me hate the way I look.<br>I also have a problem that people don't look at me. Like when I was with my friends last night they all looked at each other but no one looked at me.<br><br>Senior year of highschool was one of the worst years of my life, this brings me the feeling of being unwanted and ugly, which I tries to get rid of.<br><br>So I looked at the mirror to check if I was the ugly one. This happened many times and I will keep doing this.<br>Whenever I will be alone at home I will check myself. Like,' wow this is my face. It's ugly.' I was a 100% sure he was way more good looking than me. But whenever they called him ugly I secretly felt like I would be considered ugly too. <br><br><br>Edit: sorry guys I'm a girl and the classmate that was called ugly is a boy. I also find him more attractive than the other guys in my class. I just feel ugly and unwanted, couldn't stop staring at my face in the mirror as if I'm looking at another person, checking if I'm the ugly one. I feel like I have a blank face, expressionless.<br>Like last night when I was with my friends who called my classmate ugly I just wanted them to look at me, to talk to me, and to also call me ugly. Just some attention and the same treatment as everyone else. I felt left out when they didn't look at me. I'm pretty sure that I'm more ugly than my classmate. I've always thought that no one would be interested in me since I'm ugly and wanted some interaction with my friends. They didn't bully my classmate and didn't call him ugly to hurt him. They were only joking. I also wanted them to call me ugly as a joke, so I could also feel like I'm a part of them, even if it means I'm the ugly one.<br><br><br>Edit2: straight up facts; I'm the ugly one, stay single forever. I couldn't find any other post after hours of searching, couldn't find any emote, this is another proof that I'm right.<br>You guys are right, I don't stand a chance. I will stay single forever. I have ugly features and I'm always left out. I was just dreaming to fit in but everyone knew that I don't fit in.<br>I have a blank face, I'm not the beauty standard since I'm short, no curves, and some emotes pointed it out correctly. I couldn't find any other post, which also proves I'm right, I'm always left out and couldn't find any emotes, which proves this as well.<br>I comfort myself by saying that I have many friends and I'm liked by everyone, but after reading the comments here, I couldn't keep comforting myself.<br>I comfort myself by saying I'm beautiful inside, but deep down I knew that no one would be interested in me, also I'm over 18 now, no one will care about that anymore.<br><br>Edit3: my friends always agreed on my judgment.<br>Like last night,' yeah that's true' (not me, when they said it about my classmate) or ' yeah I can see it.' ( same thing, not I'S) ' Yeah I agree,' ' yeah this guys face is also ugly.<br>Like last night,' yeah that's true' (not me, when they said it about my classmate) or ' yeah I can see it.' ( same thing, not I'S) ' Yeah I agree,' ' yeah this guys face is also ugly. And another time,' yupp he is the ugly one'Someone said it's because I speak the truth always, but that couldn't be the reason. They call my classmate ugly in another language which I couldn't speak since I