My (39F) husband (39M) admitted to me that prior to us dating, he was a "fuckboy" and slept with over 140 women. I am reeling and don't know what to do.

Here's the full story: my husband, Chris, was born and raised in Brooklyn, went to college in NYC, worked in finance until some time in the mid 2000's, moved upstate to the Hudson Valley, got a good job, then we met about six years ago. We were married in 2019 and are about to celebrate our four-year anniversary.<br><br>About two months ago, I learned that my husband had been cheating on me via the details of his Open relationship with another woman. I posted at the time to this sub and got a lot of helpful input. But as I dug more into learning more about the woman he was having a relationship with, some red flags came up. Specifically that this woman was connected to the BDSM scene, and my husband was connected to that scene with her prior to us even meeting. There were a number of other connections between them that my husband had essentially lied to me about. For example, he said they first met in 2016 at a community theater group in our area. It turns out that in reality, they met way earlier, back in 2014, when he was still working at a restaurant in NYC and he picked her up at a concert one night. Or should I say, he picked up a number of women that night, including her, and had a gang bang party. I learned that this woman was the first person he engaged in "kinky" sex acts with, including BDSM and gang bangs.<br><br>I dug deep into this and discovered that he was still engaging with the BDSM scene even after we were married! He also had a secret Facebook account where he was in contact with a woman in a nearby city that he met through this scene, and they were also in an open relationship.<br><br>I pressed him about all of this and he insisted that he had ended all of his relationships with these people and was being faithful to me. But he admitted that he had lied to me about connections to these people. I insisted that he show me his phone but he wouldn't until I pushed him again and again and he eventually showed me screenshots of text conversations he was having with three women, including the one from the nearby city, plus the woman from the community theater, plus another woman I had never heard of, who was in the city. He said that the only one he was having a physical relationship with was the woman from the community theater, and that the other two were just friends. That's what he said, but when I looked at the screenshots, they were clearly chatting about sex.<br><br>I told him I need to see his phone and he said that he would give me his phone to look at, but only if I gave him my phone to look at too. I said of course, but when I reached for his phone he pulled it back and said no. So I reached and grabbed it and started scrolling through it. This was a big mistake because I got obsessed with looking at all of his text conversations, his emails, his deleted emails, and eventually I found more lies about more women and more shit that he was doing behind my back.<br><br>I confronted him with it and he didn't deny it. He said that he had lied to me out of fear that I wouldn't be okay with this stuff and he was trying to protect me from it. Then to my surprise, he opened up to me about his past. He told me that he had slept with over 140 women and that he used to go out to clubs and bars and pick up multiple women in the same night. He said that he used to go to after-hours parties that were connected to some kind of scene (I think the "festival scene" is what he called it?) and that there would be all sorts of sex acts happening.<br><br>He said that in hindsight, he realizes now that he was suffering from mental health issues at the time and that he was doing this stuff to fill a void. He said that he kept doing this stuff until he had his first serious relationship with a woman, which was back in 2008, and that woman was the "love of his life" and he realized then that he had been doing all this superficial stuff for too long and he wanted to settle down.<br><br>He said she died four years later from some kind of health issue and that he then spent a period of time grieving her before he met me and he was ready to settle down again. He said that he was afraid to open up to me about his past because he was afraid that I would be disgusted by it.<br><br>I'm not going to lie, I am disgusted. I feel horrified. I have been crying nonstop this past week and can't stop thinking about it. I keep having visions of him screwing woman after woman after woman. I imagine the sex parties he went to. I feel like I'm living in a nightmare.<br><br>I don't know what to do. I told him that I need some space and he's been sleeping in the guest bedroom. I'm about eight months pregnant with our first child. What the hell am I supposed to do? I thought we had a happy marriage and now I find out he was a "fuckboy" and that he was still engaging with that woman until a month ago!<br><br>IF YOU MADE IT THIS FAR, THANK YOU FOR READING. I guess I should stop rambling now. Any thoughts or advice would be appreciated.<br><br>TL;DR: My husband admitted that prior to us dating, he was a "fuckboy" and slept with over 140 women. He also used to go to sex parties. I am reeling and don't know what to do.<br><br>****EDIT**** Thank you to everyone who has commented. It looks like there's been a huge response. I'm going to read through and respond to what I can. Some have asked why I didn't know about his past if it was so out in the open. My response to that is: how would I have known? He didn't have any social media accounts so there was no way for me to find out that way. I met him through mutual friends who didn't know anything about any of this. I didn't know anyone else from his past, so they couldn't have told me. The only way I would have known was if he told me, which he didn't.