Am I(Am I) going crazy?

one thought it was just kinda funny and was like "oh yeah I'll have a little fun" and then the next day I'm pretty sure I jacked off for 3 hours... and just could not...not finish it all... I know I'm bad and that thought is perverted... but I'm not capable of doing things like this<br><br>Edit: I'm wondering if in my "lapse of memory" for the 3 hours... did I do something else and just think I did this to cover myself? (I've dealt with things like this in the past) But once I finished, I was just wildly telling myself "this is wrong"... I don't even want to say what thought it was...