My greatest heartbreak happened because I said hello to her with my boxers on.

She was my flatmate in the first year of uni.<br>My sister always told me ‘a man is sexiest when he is chilling at home and wearing something comfortable.’ That was what I was doing when I saw her for the first time. I was wearing boxer shorts. I was topless.<br>I broke the ice by saying “Hi! I am” followed by my name. ‘Don’t forget to include your name when introducing yourself’, my mom told me.<br>So, she introduced herself too. But she barely said hi. She only added her name. I felt heartbroken. I was a loser. I said goodbye to her to go to my room to cry.<br>During the year I pushed really hard to show her how good-hearted, cool and funny I am. I only got to be her ‘gotta be nice because we’re flatmates’ friend. She did not like me that way.<br>I mocked myself at how I said hi wearing boxers. What a loser, I thought.<br>I cried and lost weight and went through a really rough time. I never spoke to her for months. She was nothing but a shadow to me. It was better for both of us that way. She didn’t like me and I didn’t want to talk to her.<br>But I wanted to see her happy because I was such a loser, I still loved her.<br>One day we had our post covid gatherings in the flat and she told me she had her birthday a week ago. I was sure we had the same birthday but now I understand how she hated me. I asked her to forgive me for not buying her a present for her birthday. She was surprised and confused but she accepted my apology with the biggest smile. It was a smile to console a loser. She added “it is so cool that you remember when my birthday is”, which I knew how she hated me because I was such a loser.<br>On the last day of uni this year, I told her how much I knew everything about her and I told her how I felt. She was so happy! She finally accepted me. When I told her she always made sure to say hi back to me during the year, she started crying.<br>She said she is going to miss me so much but that I needed to believe in myself and take care of myself. She asked me to be her date in the upcoming birthday party but I said I have already talked to the birthday girl about that a week ago. She said “why did you talk to her first?” I said “because that is how you make sure you’re invited to a party my loser friend once told me.” which I knew she hated me because I was such a loser.<br>She told me to give her the same present I was gonna give to the birthday girl and I gave it to her. I got her favourite snacks to her. I will never see her again but I felt so fucking good to see her so fucking happy. I will never let her down again.<br><br>That loser told me how to treat a lady nicely.