Everyday I imagine apologizing for why I can't bathe or sleep

I imagine myself out of energy and having to explain to ppl I am truly so exhausted after 8 hours of work I can't even clean myself, I will do it at 5 am bc I need to rest. If I am depressed and still working I need to have a day for myself, I don't know I don't have energy to do shit, I am sorry if I don't gather myself to eat two clean meals a day, I will eat once bc I am too exhausted and I don't have the energy. I am sorry if I don't sleep in my bed bc my mind is racing after a long day working, my hair is ugly, definitely needs to be washed. It's been dyed for months I can't gather myself to do it, I am so sorry I can't even care for this body, if you see my hands they are dry I know I get pressurized by everyone around me to throw myself out there to get things done, but I can't I don't know how to... I am not perfect I am sorry. I am sorry I am depressed, I am in therapy, I know I am a piece of shit, I am throwing myself out there every fucking day... But bathe?? No sorry I am so tired I am just going to cry and sleep, my vacation is in six weeks I will do it then. Why can't anyone stop fucking bothering me while I am not doing everything I need to do ?