I don't know what's happening but I'm becoming a paranoid delusional

I'm not sure what's happening, but it feels like a slow and painful mental disintegration. I don't know what's happening, but I feel like I'm going crazy. I see things out of the corner of my eyes, but I don't have the courage to turn around and look. I see shadowy figures lurking around the edges of my vision. I'm constantly looking over my shoulder to see if someone or something is following me. I feel like I'm in some kind of crazy movie, except it's real life.<br><br>I keep thinking someone's watching me, listening to me, even inside my own home. I feel like my privacy is being invaded, but I don't know who or what could be doing it. I've started to notice strange noises, like footsteps or breathing, when I'm alone in my apartment. But every time I turn around to look, there's no one there.<br><br>I've even started to wonder about my friends and family. I've become paranoid about who I can trust. I keep thinking someone close to me could be playing some kind of mind game with me, manipulating me, or even controlling my actions. It's like I'm living in some kind of twisted spy thriller.<br><br>I feel like my grip on reality is slipping. I'm starting to question everything around me. Even my own thoughts feel like they're not my own. I don't know what's real and what's not anymore. It's like everything is fake, except for the fear that feels so real.<br><br>I don't know what's happening, but I don't know if I can keep this up. I'm tired of living in fear, tired of living in doubt. I just want to feel safe, to feel like I'm in control. But every day feels like a battle, a fight to stay sane in a world that feels like it's against me. I don't know if I'll win, but I don't know how to lose either. I just keep fighting, because I don't know what else to do.