My husband admitted he wanted to end marriage and that he didn't love me anymore but that day he came back home, I saw something and can't see it over my husband no more

I can't post this anywhere. I'm originally from Brazil and living in the United States with my husband (38M) and our 2 kids. We've been married for 10 years. My husband has been somewhat distant since COVID started and I thought it was work stress since he is a doctor but it got worse and worse during the pandemic. He admitted in January 2021 he wanted to end our marriage and that he didn't love me anymore. He moved and stayed with a friend for 2 months and in March out of blue he called saying he was sorry and wanted to come back home that he didn't want divorce and he was leaving everything for us. It was weird because he didn't want to talk and was irritated and told me we would see a therapist together but just to have the kids well, since he didn't love me anymore. <br>I accepted and we originally started couples therapy in April and somehow he was better and not acting cold anymore. I was happy to have him back but he wasn't being romantic or sexual with me. In all this time he only had sex with me two times. Our first session the therapist asked me if I had listened to my husband when he said he wanted to end our marriage. I was surprised and asked if he wasn't there to make us better and not to end my marriage. My husband and the therapist kinda laughed and said no and that we were in couples therapy and that I must listen to his side of the story. After that day he stopped because he didn't like the fact I was crying. I was alone and I thought I was going crazy so I searched for one and started going to therapy as well. <br>In September he started coming home late and sometimes he didn't even come home so he said he was going to sleep in his office and that was fine for me since I was living a HELL and I didn't even wanted to share the bed with him. I was alone, crying all the time and wanted to die. My therapist told me to talk with my husband and expose how I was feeling. I did in October and he said I was exaggerating, and that he was home, and that I didn't lose anything and the family was fine. I told him how I was feeling extremely hurt that he didn't even mentioned me in the family and he just laughed and said he was sorry for that. I told him how much I missed him, how much I wanted to be embraced, to be kissed, caressed and he said he needed space and I was suffocating him and that he couldn't operate if he wasn't "treated and helped" by someone else and that he was sorry because he needed professional help. The therapist in our first session told us that separation was like death and that my husband needed to mourn his death and that's why he needed time alone to find himself. The therapist said that it was normal and that he had to heal first. I was desperate and told him I needed professional help too, and that I needed help and I didn't see why he needed to be treated and how come he could find professional help and I couldn't and he just said that I couldn't be treated by him because it was unethical. <br>One day in October, I came home and looking at the garage door camera and I saw a woman pulling down her pants. I stopped the car in the middle of the street and I came back. I didn't know what I was gonna do and I was shaking and crying when I arrived. Lucky me, he wasn't home and the woman was already gone and she left her sh*t in our garage. I told my therapist and she told me to speak with him and I did but in a calm way. He said he was very sorry and that it never happened before. I told him how I felt and he just hugged me and said he was sorry. He cleaned everything and it was "fixed" but I couldn't sleep since the day I saw and that day I felt something was wrong. It felt weird and out of character for him. Even his friends are concerned about him. I have a feeling something is wrong with him and I don't know if he is homosexual or if he is doing something else. I'm originally from Brazil and that's very common. I've been researching a lot and I don't wanna end my marriage but I cannot stay in a marriage in which my husband doesn't love me and if he is not being loyal to me. I asked my therapist for advice and she told me to confront him and I did but he just denied and told me how I was so paranoid and that I needed professional help. <br>It's been 3 months and I waked up at 2am and he wasn't home and I texted him asking where he was and he was irritated and said that he was in the hospital but he wasn't responding and I called his best friend and he didn't know where he was. I'm gonna end my marriage because I can't see it over him anymore. I'm leaving him this week.