I (33M) would like to ask my girlfriend (31F) about her past, and I’m scared she will leave me.

Last year I asked my girlfriend, let’s call her Sylvia, about her past. I asked if she has ever done anything naughty or done something she regretted when she was drunk.<br><br>She told me she performed a oral sex on her ex-husband’s friend. I asked if it was on purpose or accidental and she said it was on purpose and that she enjoyed it. I was OK with that, but then I asked if you could do that stuff with me? And she said I am not like those guys and she does not want to ruin what we have in the bedroom by bringing up old memories.<br><br>Some days later I asked if she did thing like that before too? She said she did this several times, with several guys and she even got caught by one of her friends making out with a guy and they became divorced soon after. <br><br>I was OK with all that, because I love her very much and I can share what she did with her. <br><br>But now I am worried, because her ex-husband did not forgive her cheating and he left the house and asked for divorce. He even moved somewhere else and does not want to see her again. <br><br>And this is where I have my problem, because I can understand he might not want to see her again if he has moved on, but he does not want to see her ever again? Can a person really feel that way about someone they actually loved? I asked Sylvia about it and she said she cheated on him on purpose because he was not paying enough time for her and did not satisfy her in the bedroom and that is why she wanted to feel what other guys could do and she did not regret it.<br><br>I can understand that a person wants to be satisfied in a relationship and if a partner is not doing his/her job, then he/she is free to leave the relationship. But I can not understand that a person can act so cruel and heartless towards a person they love and say that they do not regret it. <br><br>I can not really see how someone can be OK with that and I would not be OK if our roles were reversed. I would understand if my girlfriend left me, but I would not be OK with me never seeing her again.<br><br>Tldr: My girlfriend cheated on her ex husband and does not regret it.