My 10 year experience in being a incel.

I am a 23 year old male, 175 cm, 54 kg, 6/10 looks, average social skills, with no girlfriend. This has been the case since I can remember. I have always been bullied since I was a kid, and it didn't get any better with time. I have never had a single friend, and I am not good looking. I have given up on even trying to improve my looks, because I believe that nothing is going to work, I just don't see myself getting any better looking.<br><br>I have tried to use online dating apps, but I have never had a match. I have asked some girls out in person, but I always get rejected. I am not good with women, I just can't muster up the courage to talk to them.<br><br>I have accepted that I am going to be a virgin forever. I just don't have the confidence to even ask a girl out for a date. I have tried to get some experience from prostitution, but I can't afford it, and it's not that common in my country. I just have accepted that I will never have any romantic or sexual experience.<br><br>I am not expecting any of you to give me any advice, or sympathy. I know that my life is shit, and I have to accept it. I just wanted to share my story with you. I have been in your position for a long time, so I wanted to give some of you advice. I am not saying that you will end up like me, but I just wanted to let you know how things can end up if you don't take things seriously.<br><br>I started to drink and smoke weed when I was 17. I would say that this has been the worst thing that has happened to me. It has made things worse for me, and I am pretty sure that I wouldn't be an incel if I didn't do that. I have tried to stop multiple times, but I always end up coming back to it.<br><br>I started to take care of my body when I was 18. I started going to the gym, eating healthy, taking a shower every day, wearing clean clothes and brushing my teeth. This has helped me a little, but not as much as I thought it would.<br><br>I also studied really hard, and I was a really good student. This has helped me to get a good job, but it has also made me really nerdy. I have never been good at sports or anything creative.<br><br>I just wanted to share my story with you. I am sorry for the wall of text.